Been gone for a while, decided it was time to come back. Where was I? Well now, that’s a question with many answers, the short one being that instead of blogging, I’ve been writing in a notebook. Not diary entries, but short stories and ideas for these. Also, I’ve started working on my first graphic novel with a group of local artists. This is a tale for another time, however.
The Australian Aborigines have a legend (or lesson, or story, or… whatever) which says that when you lose yourself, you go out on a long walk. You keep on walking as long as it takes. Then, eventually, you’ll meet yourself on the path. That’s when you sit down and have a long conversation with yourself, where you talk about everything and anything. When there are no more words to tell, when all has been said, you look up to the stars. The two become one, and that’s when you finally find yourself.
I’m still walking.
It seems that every year, at around this time, I begin the process of re-examination. Or rather, I start around November and go on until… whenever. This past year, 2007, was particularly turbulent for me. Not bad, but certainly turbulent. Many changes, many life-altering decisions…
… and many things to be grateful for.
So New Year’s Day came and went, and like almost everyone, I’ve made a list of resolutions for this year. Most people sort of half-assedly decide on a resolution in the last days of the year, make no plan for its attainment, amble around trying to make it happen during the first month of the year, and by the end of that first month they consider their resolutions — fantasies, I like to call these — a bust. (Think about it: how many people do you see — every — talking about their new years resolutions in May.)
These weren’t made on a whim, not in a moment of sudden boisterous inspiration when surrounded by friends and people I hoped to impress. These were forged over weeks, written down, thought about and planned out.
- To lose 50 lbs, healthily, from my current weight. Las year I lost 30 lbs total, and while that’s good, I still have a lot to work to do. By the end of the year I intend to be at 225 lbs.
- To have my first short story sold and scheduled for publication.
- To write at least 3,000 words per day as either a blogger or a fictional writer. (The stuff I do at work doesn’t count.) This way I can get all the bad writing out of the way, and down to the good writing.
- Improve my writing. It’s not good enough to be considered “good”. In the pursuit of this, I plan to start talking writing courses, something new to me. (Believe it or not, I’ve never actually taken any writing courses.
- To become a better person than I am today. This one, I hope, doesn’t need explaining.
These resolutions are not for perfection. In fact, I’ve already broken one of them. Doesn’t mean I have to stop trying, does it? Victory is merely the act of getting up one more time than you’ve fallen.